Healing is not linear.
It moves more like the ocean after war — waves that advance, retreat, and surge again without warning.
You may feel steady one week and underwater the next.
That does not mean you are failing.
It means your nervous system is recalibrating.
C.R.E.ST
Military training prepares you for battle in phases:
Preparation. Engagement. Regroup. Redeploy.
Recovery follows a similar pattern.
You stabilize.
You process.
You strengthen.
You regroup when waves hit again.
Just like war, progress is not a straight line forward. It is movement with setbacks, adaptation, and endurance.
Trauma changes the brain and body.
The nervous system stays alert long after the threat is gone. Memory fragments. Trust shifts. Identity can fracture.
This is not weakness.
It is biology responding to survival.
Healing takes time because the body must learn safety again.
Healing may look like:
A panic spike that lasts 10 minutes instead of an hour
Speaking about what happened without shutting down
Setting one boundary you never set before
Sleeping through the night for the first time in months
Choosing not to isolate
Progress is often quiet.
But it is measurable.
Following the Heyder-Beattie Class Action, nearly 20,000 CAF members came forward with experiences of sexual misconduct connected to their service.
Research consistently shows that trauma recovery improves significantly when individuals have access to structured support, safe environments, and trauma-informed care.
You are not the only one navigating this terrain.
And recovery is not only possible — it is common with the right support.
Many members say the same thing when they begin:
“I should be over this.”
“Other people had it worse.”
“How can I protect a country when I couldnt protect myself”
Strength in service was about enduring.
Strength in recovery is about allowing support.
The waves may still come.
But you will not be standing in them alone.
Recovery is not about erasing the war.
It is about learning how to live on steady ground again.
Step by step.
At your pace.
On your terms.